I described my afternoon yesterday with my daughter in the post below this one. Everything was accomplished and I returned home. At 5:58 pm she called to make sure I got home okay and told me she really liked the house and everyone was really nice.
At 7:00 am this morning, her former sponsor called me to tell me that she never came home last night.
She's pretty convinced DD2 is with the Boyfriend. He wasn't really talking to her yesterday, but I really figured they'd be talking again soon. I hoped however, that they would not get together. Her probation officer had said that he turned himself in on Monday and was "doing what he needed to do." I was hopeful about that.
If her sponsor isn't able to get my daughter to return to the sober home by about 3 pm today, she's going to just call Probation and report it. This hopefully would eventually result in arrest. My daughter's admitted goal while she was on her last run was to use enough to kill herself. So I'm hoping that they are able to arrest her sooner rather than later. Arrest is the only thing that stops her.
But frankly, I don't think that an arrest, or continuing this revolving door in and out of jail would accomplish much. My daughter just doesn't seem able to do this. She's broken. She asked me again yesterday if I thought she could do it. Yesterday, I told her once again, "I know you can!"
But today, I just don't think she will. I will never give up hope. But I feel that I'm hoping for something that will never be.
I guess today will be one of those one hour at a time days... I have work to do, and I have other family members to love and care for, and what will be will be!