What was that about "no rough patches here"?
I just got off the phone with my daughter.... she relapsed Saturday. (In retrospect it may have been before then.) She says she has been clean several days now.
She was supposed to stay with us several days each week, this month, and then move into a place with her boyfriend when he got off probation later this month or early January.
Apparently he relapsed too, but says he's clean now, that it was just one slip. I hope he is telling the truth because he is risking his license and thereby, his job, if he is using.
We've told her she cannot stay here, since she relapsed. This may seem heartless to her, but as I explained to Boyfriend, we have been told on multiple occasions by multiple different advisers and counselors and program folks, NOT to provide her that kind of cushion. Helping her when she is clean is one thing. But based on having brought her home after "slips" many times in the past ten years, and having it not work out at all, we are not going to repeat that particular scenario.
A lot about her story doesn't make sense. She says she has no money for a sober home. I told her and Boyfriend that I know many sober homes will take you with nothing, and then you can pay when your next check is available. There are places, and she probably knows about them, where she can go and have shelter until she can figure out what she is going to do.
My heart wants to solve this. But I should not do so.
I will be dead and gone one day (probably sooner rather than later, at this rate!) and she will have to be able to figure these things out for herself.
I just don't get it. She was looking forward to getting a place with him, she was happy, I thought.
If she's not done, I guess she just has to go back out there and play that game some more. She's looking at prison if she doesn't get this figured out soon. For several years.
I continue to hope that it won't come to that.
Once again, I am left with not much except tears, fear that she will overdose, fear that she will die....
and hope. She is still breathing. There is still Hope.
I love her so much.